Til Death Do us Part

       Must you know, I am married now. I'm currently 18 weeks pregnant and going through what feels like the hardest time with my marriage. Maybe it's because I'm pregnant or just a rough start...but let me tell ya I feel like I'm losing my mind here. I wish someone knew how I felt. I'm so stinkin frustrated with Brad. Seems like we cant agree on what color the sky is lately and I finally opened up to him about how  totured and abandoned I was and felt when everyone I loved and was supposed to love me LEFT ME. I thought he understood...apparently not because he used it against me in our fight the next day. It was a little piercing to the heart if you know what I mean. He talks to me like I'm a dog and tells me I need to listen to him and I have no opinion...God does it just hurt. The moment I feel like I'm starting to grow in my relationship with God this crap happens. He caused me to have a complete meltdown and threatens me with divorce and tells me that his dad was right about me. His father is a whole entire different conversation...lets just say the man has called me a whore to Brad, need I say more? Honestly....what am I to do? Brad wont listen to me!! I keep on asking him to do marriage courses with me and he thinks "nothing" is wrong with us...REALLY.....I mean really now. A blind man could see we need help. Nothing I do is good enough for him and seriously 9 times out of 10 a complaint about anything will come out of his mouth. So over the negativity.. The last thing I will say is.....HELP! I dont want to fail...